BooBoo & Schmoo.

One thing in life that i should definitely be used to by now is saying goodbye. Especially since now is probably the biggest time for saying goodbye of my life! But no matter how many time i have to say it, it never gets any easier. Honestly, sometimes i dont care that i wont see people anymore. I just wish them the best of luck in life and then we go our separate ways. But then there are those people who are just hard to let go...
So i met this guy named Rick this year & me and him became really good friends really fast. But he's a future Marine, too, so i knew all along that i'd have to say goodbye to him eventually.And i had this theory...If i start to separate myself from him, it wont hurt so bad when i have to say goodbye later. Wrong. And i tried it with Rick, because i know that he will be, by far, the hardest person to see go. But in the end i realized that i was just hurting myself because i wasnt spending any time with him. And i realized that it wasnt getting any easier when i'd start feeling low every time someone talked about him going off to basic.
And i feel so dumb because im crying over him leaving and i probably shouldnt be. And i know that all of the little things are gunna be what gets to me after he leaves. We have a lot of memories made and i honestly dont think that him or anyone else is going to understand how much im going to miss him. And when i think about it , i realize that he's made such a difference in my life and changed me in ways that i didnt realize needed changing. A lot happened this year and there's no one else i would have been able to spend those late nights talking to...
...or crying to once i thought things were too much to handle.
I just couldnt picture being so close to any other guy in the time that we've been friends. And i wouldnt trade the memories for anything. And there's this joke with a lot of our friends that we're going to get married one day...and although i dont think it will ever go that far i know that we'll at least be friends for life.
hhmmm...i love my schmookiddy.

a little about me*

born lanenya-junese. nicknamed ms.newnew.lj.filmoslim.and juno booboo. but most commonly known as nene. legal as of feb. 7th, 2008. cali born & raised. lovin' life in hawaii. future member of the USMC. leilehua high school senior alumni.i love all, but trust few. i miss michelle solis more than anything in the world. unattached, but there is a special someone.i'm living proof that brunettes have more fun. i like to think that brains+beauty+boys=greatness, but two out of three isnt bad. i stopped giving a shit about a lot of things because i cared way too much in the past.judge me and i'll be sure to prove you wrong. i'm not perfect, but some parts of me are pretty awesome. being fake is a new trend i refuse to follow. i love the finer things in life but little things make me smile, too. my future is so you'll probably need some shades to stand next to me. i aint easy, i aint sleazy but if you shop with me i'll love you forever.& if you call me baby and i'll melt a little.i love being the color in a world of black and white. one day i'll live happily ever after. but for now i'm content just being happy.